This month I want to delve into our spiritual well-being. Since my brother's death in April, I have spent quite a bit of time reflecting on my own life as I am sure anyone who has lost someone does.

My brother's death really took its toll. I tried to carry on and continued to ful-fill my obligations, but I slowly began to wear down. At the urging of my own spirit and of friends, I decided to take time off to heal. This was very difficult because I felt guilty about taking time off from working. However, I knew I needed to do it in order to be any good to myself or my loved ones.

While taking the time off, and spending time with the Lord, God put it in my spirit to start up my dancing again- my first love. And so I did and now I am dancing 3-6 hours a day, 5 days a week. It feels great. It has helped me heal and release a lot of the pain as well as opened me up to more creativity.

During this time off , I started to get really angry. Angry at myself for spending time "scrambling for crumbs" in my life. I have taken jobs that I haven't been passionate about, got involved in projects that I knew were a waste of time and yet I felt I could "change," and made decisions that were not always the best for me. "Damnit I am worth more than that," I decided. "More than selling myself short."

I decided when I returned to work, my approach would be different. This time I would be true to my spirit. I would only go after jobs I was hot about, that fit my purpose in life, and ones I can be proud of.

Of course after making this decision to change, I was challenged. I had a photo shoot for some new headshots. I knew in my spirit I should have gone to my other photographer, but I didn't listen and I tried someone local instead...