I remember screaming inside, “This can’t be my life!”
I Was One Hot Mess
In the course of 8 years of running my performing arts school, my health was in shambles. Overweight, overworked, and overwhelmed, I barely slept more than 4-5 hours a night. My diet sucked (if I did eat) and I hadn’t danced or even exercised – for almost 8 years!
I also spent those 8 years in a horrific legal battle that left me with an incredible amount of debt (but that’s a story for another day).
At 51, my mind, body, and spirit were broken. I was miserable, filled with depression and anxiety, and in and out of the hospital several times for stress-related illnesses.
I was one hot mess whose life was out of control.
During Covid, I was no longer able to work 18 hour days, 7 days a week, and so I was forced to slow down and well, take a hard look at my life.
I realized not only was my mental and physical health suffering, but my most important relationships suffered, as well. My kids were emotionally distant and my marriage barely existed. Michael and I were living more like roommates than husband and wife.
I was so pissed as I realized I had lost so much over the years. Years I could never get back. I remember screaming inside, “This can’t be my life!”
Hitting Rock Bottom
The critical moment came one day when I was cleaning the house and came upon some old journals of mine. Journals that spanned the past 25 years of my life.
As I sat on the edge of my bed reading through them, I was shocked. Leafing through journal after journal that spanned a couple of decades, I realized all the dreams, wishes, and goals I had for my life, I was still wishing for – 25 years later! I had never achieved the dreams that were deep in my heart.
I cried as I thought to myself, “If I were dead and my kids found my journals, what would they think of me?” Would they see their mother as a failure? An embarrassment? A woman who had dreams and never pursued them? Someone who complained, but didn’t change anything? A woman who gave up?
Would they end up resenting me? Would they shake their heads in pity and disgust when they remembered me?
Would I be an example of how NOT to live their lives?
Or worse, would they live their lives as unfulfilled as I was? Like me, would they live an unlived life?
As morbid as my thinking was, it was in that moment that I knew I had to make some serious changes. I decided right then and there, this was not how I was going to be remembered. This was not going to be the example I’d leave. “No”, I said to myself, “This shit’s gotta change. Now!”
So I made the difficult decision to close my school down permanently, as even thinking about returning gave me panic attacks. And while leaving my students was hard (as I loved them so), I knew it was the right decision – for me and what was truly important to me – my health, my life, and my family.
I took time to reflect on what I wanted (and didn’t want) in my life.
I invested in myself by getting the help I needed to heal from the traumas and beliefs that had been holding me back.
I started taking care of myself through exercise, proper nutrition, and sleep.
I started to lose weight and get in shape
I started repairing my relationships.
I got out of debt.
I learned to set boundaries around my work and life.
I started dancing again.
I began to own my dreams, and set goals and a plan to achieve them.
I wanted to be an inspiration and build a legacy for my family. I wanted to rebuild my marriage, take charge of my life, and not waste another moment wishing for what I dreamed for.
From an Extra to Leading Lady
So though it wasn’t easy, I took control and became the Leading Lady of my life.
Today, you will find me doing what I love. Spending time with my husband in our renewed marriage (we’ve moved out of California and are busy building a new life together. We call it Life 2.0), spending as much time as possible with our 3 grown children and beautiful grandchildren, and spending time in my faith which I had put aside.
I’m also happily busy with my media company, SPB Media Entertainment Group, and I have returned to performing again with my performance company, SPB & Co. Why did I think I should ever retire from doing what I love?? Because others said it was time? BS! I’m designing my life now. I’m owning my dreams.
After turning my world around, I decided I had to see other women do the same. So after training with some of the industry’s most world-renowned experts in life and health coaching – including Tony Robbins, Cloé Madanes, and Dr. Natasha Campbell-McBride – I developed my signature Leading Lady Solutions coaching programs to help other women conquer their fears, take bold action on their goals, live the life of their dreams, and build a legacy for generations to follow.
I want to see women stop feeling like an extra – shrinking and hiding in the shadows. I want to see them take back control
and liberate their lives.
Take it from me (and I’m serious, here. No BS), no matter your past, your mistakes or pain, you can change your life! Just don’t wait. Don’t let one more moment go by living in fear or regret. Your future is depending on you!
We don’t need more victims. What we need is strong women who are willing to battle their demons so they can lead and empower the next generation.
Working with a Professional Makes All the Difference
Robbins-Madanes Center for Strategic Intervention
The Modern Life Coach School
Radical Mentoring/Known Collective
Health, Nutrition, Fitness & Dance
Certified GAPS Practitioner
Institute Transformational Nutrition
The Academy for Addiction & Mental Health Nutrition
Nourishing Traditional Diets
Multi-Certified in Dance/Fitness/Yoga
Women’s Life Strategist, Holistic Health Practitioner, CGP, Cooking, Fitness and Therapeutic Dance Coach
Professional actress/dancer with over 30 years in the business
Performed in NY, LA and toured throughout The US
Produced, written, directed and performed my one-woman show, Restrained No More
Written, directed and performed my one-woman stage show, Life in Progress
Artistic Director/Owner Studio Sharise Creative & Performing Arts Academy
Director for SPB Media Entertainment Group
Director for SPB & Company & SPBTV
Coach and Strategist to women creatives